Confessions of a 20 year old blogger

OKAY, first of all I went to write "teenage blogger" in my post title before realising I am 20. I know 20 isn't old but damn, I still feel 13 most days and 3 the rest of the time.

 If you think that's dramatic;

1. Check my blog name you, AND ALSO
2. You haven't seen anything yet my pretties. (que evil laugh)

So...I wanted this blog to be sort of a output of me venting my feelings and thoughts (Being able to use over the 140 characters that twitter allows) If I'm entirely honest I wasn't sure what was the point of this, does it benefit me or you?! But maybe the idea is we help each other, in this life we are all bumbling along side by side the least we can do is give each other a hand right?

Enough of the heavy now me thinks, I decided to dedicate this blog to the first 3 of 20 things I have learnt now I'm 19 20(I WILL GET USED TO IT I PROMISE) and do at least one blog devoted to the next instalment every month (let me know if ya have any ideas) anyway:     

1.  From what I've seen some people most definitely peak at 15, and then after its all rubbish fake tan and broken dreams...(Basically it's okay to not be the most popular person that ever took breath)- Okay that was dramatic but what i'm getting at is that the minority of people were part of the popular clique when you're around 12-18, and truthfully that used to bother me A HELL OF A LOT when I was younger. The need to fit in was a huge weight on my young teenage shoulders, like it probably is on others now.. AND even in uni you get some people who want to float to the top, but I find them laughable being the wise old women I am now. You know who you are just take a chill pill I don't think you can get a degree in being 'an edgy cool ass mofo' BUT I'll ring UCAS and check, you never know. I think I just learnt that as long as you have a good group of people around you and you're happy then that is well and truly all that matters. . .

    2. Don't rush anything or wish for anything to fly by, EMBRACE EVERY MINUTE- Now I sound like a fridge magnet but I'm serious. Do you remember waiting to be 13, and then when you were 13 you probably thought "oh my gawd I can't wait to be 16 i'll be practically grown up" and so on with 17,18,19. I know I'm not at all ancient but so far in my dramatic lifespan, my favourite time was from when I was 13/14/15. When you can start to gain independence and yet still get pocket money and presents from father christmas.   

  (sorry I had to) ... BUT as I previously wrote about in a previous blog about Disney films(it is on the right waiting to be read, read me it cries.READ ME).. Ahem don't try and grow up too fast try and enjoy every minute every pimple every time your mum washes your clothes for you (trust me you will miss that when all your whites turn grey /off pink!) Because if you are always waiting for something even if its a birthday, are you making the most of this very moment? Or is it just counting down constantly? Perhaps have a little think... (Not that I'm making the most of this very moment, by deciding which bedding I should put on my bed. DRAMA) 

  AND finally for this little snippet of a blog, drum roll for my last piece of wisdom. Don't cry too hard....

   3. It is really not about who goes from your life, but rather who stays- It may sound a tad cliche, and a line from a self-help book but the people who stick around through all your meltdowns are the ones that count. NOT the ones that don't. 

       Personally I can find it so hard to stay positive sometimes, and it feels like people in my life are swinging through a revolving door of in and out. BUT it's the ones that have been in and stay in that are important, when it comes to friends its definitely quality over quantity RIGHT?! Though sometimes it feels more like this...

  

 So sad and so true... Steak is most defo not only the quality friend but the one who is always there. Trusty steak mmm. Anyway, we are all so young and as my father once told me (I sound older than 20 there, can never get the balance right can I?) He said to me "Why worry about all these silly people? you are 18 (at that time) you have met under 10% of the people you will EVER meet in your life, you have 90 more percent to find the right people so much to do and see just wait..."

               Him saying that just seemed to make sense and not needing an explanation, I hope it does to you lovely lot. You are all wonderful and you'll find some equally wonderful people if you haven't already.  SO tell your pals how great they are, but not to lovingly or they will accuse you of either being very drunk/high or you've dropped their toothbrush down the loo. (IT WAS AN ACCIDENT I SAID SORRY GOSH.)

                  

           ANYWAY... I feel I have prattled long enough my little bon-bons, till the next time you gorgeous creatures of the night. Stay Safe and EAT YOUR CRUSTS I PROMISE IT WONT MAKE YOUR HAIR CURLY (or will it...)

  M x

Maisie is ladeeeloving these things at the very moment in time:

• Crazy hair dyes- I have dyed the ends of my hair purple and I feel like some kind of summery fairy it is really quite awesome. AHAND not permanent, so does not mean my hair will snap off...
• Ten pin Bowling- Even if i did lose with the sides up.. I imagined the ball was the head of my enemies as it rolled along mwahahaa (i didn't really, even for me that's a tincy bit mean)
• A WHOLE PINEAPPLE FOR £1 FOR SAINSBURYS- spikey goodness IF I could work out how to cut it
• Playing music so loudly the floor vibrates- Is there any other way to play it though? It's so everyone else can appreciate my outstanding 'scene kid 2008-10 era' playlist...
• Second chances - We should all be more forgiving of each other, have faith cherubs the suns shining which can only mean good things are on the way!

  

FEEL free to drop a comment maybe a cheeky like, and any suggestions my lovely things will be either ignored or acted upon (I make no promises!!!!)

goodness gracious MY LAPTOPS ON FIRE.

Well, I would have posted more of my wisdom sooner, but I think the blogging gods are trying to tell me something. My laptop melted, YES physically melted. I mean I knew I was a hot blogging machine but did my actual blogging machine really need to get so hot and melt on me?!

                                    
  ANYWAY I shall be blogging from my phone for now until new laptop is purchased and appreciated with all its glory. (Expect many "Oooh shiny" noises coming from
Me ) WHAT I wanted to blog about was cartoons and Disney and the whole concept that they are just for children.  Having used to work for the Disney company (in the Disney store) you regularly heard parents telling teenagers and other adults telling their friends/coworkers/partners/pets  that "Disney is for babies." My good sirs and madams who think this way you are deluded. deluded I say.
                         

   Don't we all want a little magic in our lives?! Fairy tales are magic, and I feel they come really with really important messages that ANYONE of ANY AGE can learn from. (Apologies for the over use of capital letters, it's not the diary of a dramaholic for nothing.) The idea of everything working out is something I think we could all use sometimes. Especially when we have a 6,000 word essay in at the end of the month and all we've decided is the font we want to use..

SORRY I had to...   Referring back though, I can openly say I love disney and children's films. I cry my eyes out from the beginning to the end of most of them. (Especially lion king and Up! - they kill me) Well really people just take the piss out of me for it, in a nut shell crying like a baby at something made for a baby.

    Well boo to you, these stories are magical they are cartoon characters that arent be real BUT they make me feel something. Isn't that extraordinary?! That these stories have touched so many?! Still not convinced I shall carry on with my rant.
    I learn from them, I learn the idea of wishing, the value of love, friendship, hard work and dreams. (Yeah it's gone soppy. I'm not even sorry!)
     Having gone to uni and lost a bit of my safety net of home, I feel like I need these films now more than ever. They make me feel safe and like a good book everytime I watch them I take away something different from any one of them... IS this just me that feels that way?!
   I've also begin to notice some of the innuendos kids film have I mean....

                        
These are definitely kids films right, it must be aimed at not just children.... Still not convinced?
   Sometimes I think people forget that these films are for all ages, and who are you to shame someone on something they like?! It's just rude and makes you a bit of a meanie pants(and no one likes those) sometimes it's nice to watch your favourite kids movie not only is it utterly brilliant, but I'll bet you'll be flooded with happy memories and might even learn something from it... But what can I say my names Maisie Hale and I'm not only a dramaholic but a disneyaholic too! (Maybe my laptop wasn't the only thing that melted)
       It's okay to be a kid sometimes, make that fort and watch all your old school favs. Honestly it may be the best thing you do this week. You have 7 days a week 22 hours to be the grown up, but for that hour and a bit you can just chill, and believe in faries. Life moves so fast, wouldn't it be nice to digress for a little while to being a 6 year old again. Amazed and captivated by the magic of a story it doesn't have to be a film, a place or book even a meal. Anything that makes you feel teeny tiny again. . .  Let me know how you get on with it , I believe we all deserve some Disney Magic every now and again. Trust me!
 

  Right well after that I suppose I'd better bippidy boppidy boo outta here (I'm not even sorry)✨
   Till next time my little chickpeas, let me know how you go!
                      M xx
P.s gifs will be arriving on this post soon never fear dolls
Maisie is loving:

• Non melted laptops (though utterly hilarious)
• Wearing sunglasses for the first time in forever (hope I HAVENT jinxed it now)
• Lemon fondant fancies, the ultimate Easter treat
• Dancing round an empty flat singing at the top of my lungs 
• Topshop, my always and forever 

GET SOME SUN ON YOUR BONES CHILD YA TOO PALE.

My name is Martha-Rose, and I am lost in wonderland...

My first blog post is inspired by  the words of Alice from Lewis Carrolls "Alice In Wonderland", when in utter despair she exclaims 'I give myself very good advice but I very seldom follow it .That explains the trouble that I'm always in '...

    I really connect with this saying, anyone else agree that saying things and following them is never that easy?!
       Take it when you have found yourself in a troubling situation with someone perhaps of the opposite(or same) sex. (HAVEN'T WE ALL). You always think that you will be that exception that you can and WILL fix whatever needs to be done, and god bless you for thinking that. But realistically you probably aren't going to be able to.....(someone had to say it, don't hate me.)

   
So yeah, put down the wine and read on dear ones... I recently had this weird deja vu  experience while pondering with a few friends, (and yes alcohol) why relationship can sometimes be the most sucky thing in the whole of suckdom. One of my Friends being in a spookily eerie situation which very much mirrored my own one in previous years. Yep a boy not wanting a relationship and a girl wanting one.  Wanting one BAD.
   
   I heard myself say "He's not worth it", "You can't make someone want what you want" and the kicker "If you're being secretive and hiding what you're doing you know in your heart (IN YOUR HEART) that it is wrong." I felt like the biggest hypocrite in the world.

 Why do we do this? Why do i do this? Offer up advice which I know is right, but in my own case, I don't follow it.
     Of course people learn from mistakes and personal experiences, but why is it we can't simply listen to the things our friends or loved ones tell us... We feel the need to sit there and nod and cry a little and say "Yes, you're so right. So wise.. Ci, ydy, oui, oui." BUT then of course, we do what we want anyway. Even though the outcomes are rarely good ones.

  Is it self sabotage? Or do we really believe that we can change our situations?! That if we can persist and persevere enough to make something happen it will.. That we all will get what we want. But my darling little chick peas, can I carry on my hypocritical advice giving?! (Don't groan too loudly)
                                            You are all worth more. 

My good friend once told me that we all deserve to be adored, and if we aren't adored by that person then they're not the right fit. And we all really do, that guy, girl or friend isn't worth it. Someone will come along who is,so don't waste your time on wasters... and maybe occasionally listen to the advice you give others. You'll be surprised by your own wisdom.

My suggestion, (not that you'll listen) write down every bit of advice you've ever given or been given. Even the silly things your Gran told you about taking your coat off when your inside or, "You won't feel the benefit when you go out." You'll honestly be surprised at all the wisdom you know or have been given. And maybe next time (we all know its going to happen) Both you and I can listen to our own advice.... But till then keep smiling my darlings, we are all lost in wonderland and if it's meant to be it will be. 

This week Maisie is loving:

• Banana shampoo (nearly good enough to eat it smells so good)
• Hudson Taylors FIRST ALBUM -Singing for Strangers
• Taking New York finale (GREAT TWIST)
• The sun finally making an appearance, a sign that things get brighter.

ALL MY LOVE, till next time

                   M x